My Life is In Your Hands
“Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus.”
A year ago, I was reminded of the song “My Life is in Your Hands” by Kirk Franklin. The song came to my mind the night before I started a new job. I was unsure of myself and I was questioning whether or not I could succeed at what I was about to embark upon. At the time, I thought the song came to my remembrance to comfort and reassure me. I saw it as a message of hope and my pending victory in the position I held, but now I view it differently. Now I know the victory is in something greater.
There has been a recurring theme—or more specifically, a scripture—that has been present in my life over the last six months.
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. ”
Don’t get me wrong, I was aware of the existence of the scripture, but I hadn’t come to the full understanding of it. Having said that, I am still learning. I am not at the place where I can honestly say I have apprehended all God has for me to learn. I say I didn’t understand the scripture fully because of another familiar passage.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.”
In a nutshell, I formed a picture in my mind of how things would pan out. There are quite a few reasons why this was wrong. For starters, I took God out of the equation and created the end result in my mind. I hadn’t considered the fact that He is the author and finisher of my faith—He is in control, not me. With this in mind as Isaiah 55:8 states, my thoughts and ways are not like His. So, I am incapable of coming to the correct conclusion by depending on my understanding.
My second mistake was not acknowledging Him and trusting Him for the end result regardless of what was ordained to transpire. The fact of the matter is, things happen in life that don’t feel good, but it is for my betterment.
My reality panned out in a completely different direction multiple times in my life. I thought my marriage would be mended and that my children would live. The opposite happened. And although it hurt, it was for my good.
I am learning the importance of submission. Realizing that I can do absolutely nothing without God. I am in a better position when I don’t depend on my own understanding.
“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ”
“For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring.”
Learning this and being obedient to it is far greater than natural accolades for a job well done. Now that I understand it better, I must do better.